Curtains Closed

The whole fiasco was a huge and elaborate infatuation.

Nobody deserves to go through this kind of misery twice if they can help it. But it is tough to be a discerning customer of love because it is so easy to surrender to the luxury of feeling in love but we can’t be lazy. In fact, I don’t think it should take more than one failed relationship to see that real love is worth the wait but life is really unpredictable (it is a hackneyed truism, I insist). And it is true that we learn from our flawed pasts. I believe nobody goes into a relationship seeing its end. We are only blind scavengers searching for the love that will exalt us to saintliness, or fall forever into the abyss without it. Sometimes, we face mirages and scramble towards it in unseeing haste, only to find that it is not the real thing. And we cry. Our hearts break. But the people before and around us will tell us it is only part of life and we learn. Because it is part of life.

But the funny thing is that we never actually learn. We think we learn but we just become more deluded. The next time we see a mirage, we may be cautious but we may still find ourselves tricked. And that is the biggest mystery of life. We never even really know if we have found the real thing. When do we know? When we take our last breaths and find that the person is still with us, and the feeling that remains is still so profound and real. It’s like taking an examination and never knowing whether we passed or failed until the very last moment of our lives.

Love is such a profound concept. To people who seek to understand it, the meaning eludes us time and again. Like how we can never comprehend the vastness of the universe. But the elusive Love is such a beauty, nobody can deny they strive for it. Some people’s whole lives are a consecration to it. True love for me is an ideal and cynicism does not stand in my way.

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5 responses to “Curtains Closed

  1. ‘I believe nobody goes into a relationship seeing its end.’

    TRUE, BUT U DUN GO INTO A RELATIONSHIP AND PUT UR WHOLE FOOT IN IT. U SAID THE MAGIC WORDS, ‘I LOVE U WITH ALL MY HEART’ THATS WHY U ARE SO DEAD NOW UR HEART HAS CONVINCED ITSELF.

    ‘it is tough to be a discerning customer of love because it is so easy to surrender to the luxury of feeling in love’

    THIS IS TRUE, BUT U ARE A NOVICE AT THIS. AT TIME GOES BY, U WILL BE SOO GD AT CONTROLLING UR EMOTIONS. U’LL LAUGH AT URSELF FOR WRITING THIS.

    ‘Sometimes, we face mirages and scramble towards it in unseeing haste’

    WHO ASK U TO SCRAMBLE TO IT? U KNOW THERE ARE SUCH A THING AS MIRAGE RIGHT? U MUST KNOW THAT U ARE GETTING AFFECTED BY THE DESERT’S HEAT, U MUST BE FULLY AWARE OF IT. SO THAT U DUN RUN THERE AND END UP FEELING NO WATER.

    ‘But the funny thing is that we never actually learn’

    HOW OLD R U MISS VALERIEJAYNE? WHAT THE HELL DO U KNOW ABT LOVE? U DUN WANT TO LEARN THATS WHY U SAY U NEVER ACTUALLY LEARN BECAUSE U HAVENT LEARNT.

    ‘We think we learn but we just become more deluded.’

    THIS IS A VERY SAD THING FOR UR FRIENDS TO HEAR ESPECIALLY AFTER THEY ALL CONSOLED U. U ARE SAYING THAT THEY HAVE LIVED THEIR LIVES IN VAIN, WHO R U TO JUDGE WHETHER THEY HAVE ACTUALLY LEARNT? MANY PPL R SMARTER THAN U.

    ‘When we take our last breaths and find that the person is still with us, and the feeling that remains is still so profound and real.’

    THIS IS RIGHT VAL.

    ‘Love is such a profound concept. To people who seek to understand it, the meaning eludes us time and again.’

    U DUN BE STUPID LA… U HAVENT SPOKEN TO PPL WHO ARE ALREADY BEYOND IT. THIS LOVE U ARE TALKING ABT IS JUST A PHASE. REAL LOVE IS ONE THAT WITHSTANDS THE TEST OF TIME. THAT INCLUDES LOSING ATTRACTION FOR EACH OTHER AND SURVIVING IT.

    True love for me is an ideal and cynicism does not stand in my way.

    U ARE AN IDEALIST BUT IDEALIST LIKE MAX WEBER AND HEGELIAN IDEALISM, UNDERSTAND THAT A CIRCLE IS ONLY AN IDEA, A CIRCLE CAN NEVER BE PERFECTLY ROUND. U ARE THE ONLY IDEALIST WHO DUN UNDERSTAND THIS.

  2. business continuity steps for valerie to take in order for the show to go on

    step 1: burn everything abt u and him, totally burn it. photos, contacts, whatever.

    step 2: go have a new haircut:) let the sunshine onto ur forehead. get a really chio haircut u wont regret.

    step 3: go talk to more guys, really.. u will feel better. (not me ah)

    step 4: go and talk to more elders, ask them how the whole thing works.

    step 5: every day when u wake up, recite this’ i realize i am feeling lesser.. really..’

    step 6: every day b4 u sleep recite this’ actually.. he isnt suitable for me lehh… really leh…’

    step 7: whatever time u have that is free, go and study. when ur mind wanders off, pull it back. just give it a try.

    step 8: tell urself ‘ val if sean can, i can. he sucks, he took 2 yrs. what a loser’

    ahahahah sometimes must use a sharp tongue on u la.. really.. AHAHAHAH K LA.. DUN ANGRY..

  3. ya la sean you suck haha after so many years already you’re still scolding me like I’m a kid. thanks ar. but thanks for being there (:

  4. ohh ohh step 9!!: go shopping buy damm sexy chio clothes and wear it. plus walk nicer la.. posture up dun bounce.. then act abit umchio.. wahh perfect man..

    disclaimer: some girls is not chio but umchio. ya lor.. hai..

    AHAHAHA yea man come on, this is soo small thing. wah given ur character, next time u look also dun wanna look at him sia. now is macham kachang puteh man.. think abt it, now u got the whole ocean filled of guys to choose from. OMG!! now u just relax, fire up ur looks. wahh confirm all the guys die man. u got the looks la what u waiting for sia.

  5. ahh oon.., lim beh is first class hon grad de hor, dun play play. ahahaha

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